Day 35 - Experiencing Christ’s Victory by Faith

Posted by Casey Dycus

“For whatever is born of God overcomes the world; and this is the victory that has overcome the world- our faith.” 1 John 5:4 

In June, Grady and I found out we were pregnant. We were about to leave for vacation, when I began to show signs of having a miscarriage. We went ahead and flew to Florida for a much anticipated trip to visit my best friend and her family. After being there a few days we had to go to the emergency room, and we were told that we had miscarried. We were disappointed, but felt God’s embrace and that He was going to use this for His glory.
 
When we returned home from our trip, I went to the doctor to make sure everything was back to normal only to find out I was still pregnant. After much testing, the doctors told us that the embryo was growing in the wrong place and that they would need to dissolve the pregnancy. I was so sad and had a deep awareness that this was not just tissue in my body, but a precious child that God knew and had begun to weave together in my body. After 2 and a half months, my body is still recovering from this pregnancy. At times I have been tempted to cry out at God for allowing it to be such a long process. It usually takes 3 weeks for a woman’s body to absorb the pregnancy. It has taken over 8 weeks for mine and we are still waiting and praying for a full recovery.   

I have grown emotionally weary over the past week with the physical pain of this process. The Lord has used 1 John 5:4 to strengthen me. He has also used precious friends and their prayers, but my study through 1 John has renewed my faith. This week there have been moments when I felt as though my faith had failed. I wanted to throw in the towel and stop trusting God that this process will come to an end, but he gently reminded me that I have victory because of my faith in Christ Jesus. Jesus has overcome the fear, doubt, worry, and struggles of the unknown. I can lay myself upon Him because He knows every bit of anxiety I face each day about my body and future pregnancies. With faith in Christ, my joy can be complete knowing He knows what is best. While going through this untimely loss of a child, I have been reminded that one day I will have sweet reunion with our child in heaven that we did not have the opportunity to meet while here on this earth.

POINT TO PONDER:  Read what the Psalmist writes in Psalm 139:13-16. Take joy my friend in how intimately God knows us even when He feels like he is a million miles away.
“Oh, yes you shaped me first, then inside and out;
You formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you High God- you are breathtaking!
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration- what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
You know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
How I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
All the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
Before I even lived one day.”

PRAYER:  Heavenly Father, thank you for letting me know that your plan for me is so intimate and wonderful. I am not a mistake and nothing in my life that happens is a mistake. Thank you that you knew all stages of my life before anything ever happened to me on this earth. Please continue to give me great mercy and grace to handle the circumstances and difficulties, joys and victories that I face each and every day! I praise you for your greatness that I will one day know and experience you face to face.  In Your precious Son’s Name I pray. Amen